Singaporeans Try: Therapy (Mental Health Special)


Hi everyone, we are going to be interrupting our weekly fun and games with a very special episode of Singaporeans Try. Some of you may have noticed that today’s episode is especially long and that is because we are going to be tackling a topic that is really close to our hearts. And that is, mental health. I think it is really important for people in society to realize that it’s just as valid to take care of your mental health as it is of your physical health. So, why is it that we find it so easy to exercise, to sign ourselves up for marathons, F45 classes. But there is so much shame and difficulty in telling someone that you’re working through a rough patch and everyone has problems. This includes the bubbliest person in your office, this include the internet personalities that you’re so used to watching on our channel. And today, 3 of them are going to be standing forward and working through these things with the help of a professional therapist. (Sighs) Oh dear. Hello. Er… Wa, tough question. I never really put a number to it. Er, I would say, like, 8. Yeah. But it’s like a long long journey. Used to be like 2. There was like a year where 80% of the days I wanted to kill myself la. So, I’ll always remember 2009 as like the worst year ever. Because every single day, I was just thinking like “Ok, like, how am I going to end my life?” But now, I’m like, happy. I would say, a 5. Maybe because there are good days and bad days. And just so happens, these few weeks have been on the bad side. If I have to rate it, I would think, a 3? I think it’s because there are a lot of issues that I have within me that are unresolved. And I think partly it’s because there’s a lot of things happening every single day in my life. Which is why it’s very hard for me to really sit down and think about things. So, when I think about things, it becomes very… toxic. And I don’t want to feel that way. So, I try not to think about it and it kind of gets postponed like over a period of time. Honestly, for the past 23 years of my life, I’ve been trying to figure out what is my coping mechanism. And I would say, it’s not very healthy? So whenever I feel sad, my solution is to turn to unhealthy stuff like drinking, hanging out late, not resting enough. Number 1 is, I try to just sweep it under the mat. And I don’t think about it. I just think of it as “Oh, this is not important. I don’t think I need to think about this.” I just… avoid thinking about it. By distracting myself with other things like being extremely focused at work. Then I try to make myself… Do things after work. So that I don’t have time to even think. In a sense, where I tire myself out. And then, let’s say if that doesn’t work, then I do have prescriptions for antidepressants and sleeping pills. And that helps me a little bit here and there. Hi, please introduce yourself and what do you do as your career. So, I’m Belinda. I’m a counsellor and a psycho therapist. I’m also the founder of The Lighthouse Counselling. What made you want to be a therapist? This is always the question that I always get asked. Because I’m coming from a very different background. So, I was in banking and finance industry for quite some time. I’ve always really liked psychology. I always liked to read psychology, I always like to read people sometimes. And to be honest with you, it’s a little bit like a dream come true to me. Because I’ve always been wanting to become a therapist myself. Ok. Jes, now I do know a little bit of the background of what you were trying to tell me. – But would you like to share from the beginning?
– Yup. So, I think the main issue that I’ve been facing as of late was my break-up. – Yeah.
– Which happened late last year, December 2018. We’ve dated for around a year. – A year?
– Yup. So, we started in November 2017. All the way to December. So, describe the relationship to me. Was it very smooth all the way until the end? Or has it been very rocky? My partner, my ex-partner, as cliche as it may sound, but. Yeah? She’s… – She was the best?
– She was the love of my life la, I would say. Everything that I wish for in a partner. So, everything was great. The whole relationship was great. But then there was always this underlying issue that we tried to avoid. – Because we are in a same-sex relationship. So, it kind of made things very difficult.
– I can imagine. Friends wise, erm, everyone is very accepting. We are very lucky to have that then. But, family is very tough. I’m so willing to just come out to my family about her. Just tell them truthfully la, that I’m seeing this girl. That was what I told her. But on the other hand, it was very difficult for her to even have the thought to even come out to her family. I feel very bad for her because when we had an argument about this, deciding like where this whole relationship is heading to. I told her something very mean. Yeah, because I… I… I wasn’t thinking it through. What did you say? So, I told her that, you see, I’m willing to do so many things for you. I’m willing to give up all the things that are in front of me. In front of me. But I don’t know about you. Why is it that you can’t… come out to your parents? She was very upset la. She told me that, you know what, I don’t understand you anymore. Because I thought that you were the one who knows exactly what I’ve been going through. Because every time when I told you when I go home, I feel these things. You were the first one I would tell. But then, for me to say those… those words, I came to realize that I was a bit selfish. Yeah. Every single day, it’s just replaying in my head. And I… And you felt really guilty about this? And I blame myself. Maybe if I didn’t say, maybe it could buy me more time. What made you feel every time when you see her? A mix of emotions, I guess. Sometimes, anger. Bitter. Sad. Disappointed. – Yeah.
– That sounds like she gave you a really really big opportunity to learn so much about yourself. – Do you agree?
– Yeah. What have you learnt about yourself? Before I got together with her, my first relationship mold me… mold me into somebody I was not. And I hated that person. So, I brought that Jeslene to my second relationship. – Then after that, then I brought the newer version of Jes, to the relationship that I was in, the recent one.
– Yeah. I was… in a way a little bit toxic for her. Because I don’t value alone time. But her on the other hand, she values alone time a lot. And it’s something that I couldn’t understand because like I mentioned, the past, the previous relationships mold me into somebody to think that alone time is not important. Yeah, but given that 10 months for me to like sit down, be alone, and think. I value so much more about alone time. And it made me grow into a better person, I would say. And… As of now, I’ve straightened out my priorities. Relationship used to be one of my, one of the biggest things in my life. But as of now, priorities shifted. Career, family, still is one of the top priorities. Before that, family wasn’t. – Have you ever thought of coming out to your parents or maybe like talk a little bit, discuss a little bit about this with your parents, without being in a relationship?
– I have no plans for that. Like, I… I’m scared. Like, very scared. Because I think they, I kind of know that they know. I feel that they know about me being like that. And yes, it has always been like… – Like, if I don’t mention, they don’t talk about it.
– Ok. It just… it just floats away, this topic. This topic would just float away. That’s the thing. Like, me going home to a place where I know my parents wouldn’t accept me. It’s very hard. And, for the past 5 years, ever since I’ve came out to my friends. – Yeah.
– And I came out as bi(sexual). I see my home as, I would say, if you could imagine, a black hole, where there is no light. The moment I go home, I will just lock myself in the room. And I don’t talk to anyone. So, at that point of time, I had a lot of things going on in my life. I wanted to… Commit suicide. This year? Everything was… was… wasn’t going great and I just wanted to. End everything. Felt that it was easier. Let’s… Let’s… Let’s sink down our thoughts. I mean like, it’s a very heavy feeling. I really could imagine how difficult it is. Especially this year, for you. If you have to, start with 1 person. Who would you start to really open up, to talk to? My sis. My sister. – Yeah.
– If let’s say, if we were to go out, and my sis were to run into her friends on the streets and she would have to introduce me as her sister. Take your time. This is… It has been so difficult for you for so many years. Take your time. If you have to breathe and just not think for a while. Seeing her expression is my greatest fear. Whether to see that she’s afraid, she’s ashamed of introducing me as her sister, or… Yeah. I want us to start thinking about how to move a little bit forward, just inch by inch. Even if it has to be, like, baby steps. Before 10 months ago, you had that enormous courage to come out to your parents and I want you to remember that particular moment. To allow yourself to think that it was possible and it will be possible. I can’t express how proud I am that you are doing this. And always see when you think, when things get so rough, so rough. Try to think that I’m giving myself another day as a new start. How I’m going to restart this again. And we’ll walk through it next time, hopefully. – Thank you.
– Thank you too. Thank you, really. – Hello.
– Hey Zhin. Hi, I’m Zhin.
– Nice to meet you. Have you seen any counsellors before? Let’s put it this way. Yup, I have. So, I saw a psychiatrist, as well as, a psychologist. Basically, there was this like, super dark moment in my life. Right. Where I didn’t want to… I didn’t see the purpose in living. Like, in staying on, breathing. So, I wanted to end the pain. The process is always very familiar. It always starts by me feeling very heavy. And then, let’s say if I’m in my room, the thing is, I would imagine the most horrible things. And then, my eyes and my vision would just turn red. And I would get so angry with a lot of things that I don’t know how to deal with it. – Yeah.
– The only thing that happened to me recently was the fact that I kind of lost who I was. And it was mainly because of what was happening in my life, in terms of my job, social media, the way people view me. – Yeah.
– On screen and off screen. – Yeah.
– Erm… Yeah, I kind of just lost it, in that sense. I was afraid to be vulnerable. To show the world that, “Hey I’m also human.” So at one point, I told myself, “No, you’re not human, you’re a robot! What you’re supposed to do, is you’re supposed to go on camera, smile, take nice photos, post it up, and then you’re done. But, it’s not who we are. – Yeah.
– We can’t do this everyday. – Yeah.
– Do you have identifiable people around you, close ones, that you felt like you’ve always trusted? Yeah, I do. Erm, but that itself got affected because I kind of lost trust in a lot of people that were close to me and I just cut them off. Do you feel that there will be a middle step, like a possible way to make them feel less confused? Actually, to be honest, I don’t know. Because there was one time where I made like a few new friends. Just two. And then, they’re all kind of known in the industry. We’re just chilling out then somebody came up to me and went like, “Zhin, why are you trying so hard?” Why are you trying so hard to? Why are you trying so hard?Yeah, why are you trying so hard? And then, I got really pissed off. Because, I was like. And then, I’m just like, I’m not even trying dude. – I’m just…
– So, they were trying to make you feel, or they weren’t necessarily trying, but they made you feel that you got close to them because you wanted to get their fame. – Leverage their fame. And that was not how you intended.
– Yeah, I didn’t even mean any harm. – Yeah, of course.
– Right, and then, I didn’t want people to be close to me because of whatever. But suddenly, I get accused of being close to people for my own personal gains. – That’s unfair.
– And I, and I don’t understand that. I felt that very strongly because when I step myself in your shoes, I’ll be like, I don’t even get a chance to even properly let you understand me. Let you to get to know more about me. And that’s not fair. I don’t get a chance to even get past what my intention is, getting close to you. If I may challenge you a little bit, and put you outside of this box. Would you think that it would feel, it might possibly feel similar for your friends that got cut off? Can you already feel that there are some people in your mind that you want to reconnect with? Um. Sorry, um. Take your time, really. Actually, like, I honestly don’t regret cutting any ties away. – Mhmm.
– It’s more of like, because… Because I feel that as a person, I am living like a double life. Like, me on screen versus me off-screen and me at home. It’s 3 different people. I kind of cut them off because I didn’t want them to be confused. Like, I myself am confused and I don’t even know who I am as a person and what kind of friend am I, what kind of… Um… To some extent, you’re trying to protect them. To some extent, you’re trying to make it easier for everybody as well. And then, the thing is, I do have people telling me, like… Wah, I wish I can be in your shoes man. You have everything. You have this, this, this, this, this. And I’m just like, do you know me? – Exactly.
– It’s really sad because I do have really amazing friends. But the thing is like, I tend to second guess them. And wonder, like when you’re nice to me, is it because of my presence on social media? Or you’re nice to me because you’re my friend? And then, the thing is, I feel bad for second guessing them. I feel bad for even having that thought. And I was like, you know what? It’s better not to have any friends. I did try to post something that was really true to what I was feeling at one point. The next day, people were thinking that I was going to die or something. And then, there were all these really heartwarming messages. Of advice. Which I appreciated. But then nobody really asked me why I was feeling that way. Yup. And I just need somebody to just ask me, why. Of course, I would love all of us to start asking people that we really care. So recently, what I did for myself was, I took a break form social media which was great because I really let go of whatever that was happening. And I just carried on with my life as per normal, without Instagram, without looking at what other people were up to, without looking at what people were saying about my photos. Or comments and stuff like that. It was the fact that I was… Maybe it’s because people missed me. – I’m sure they did!
– I mean not a lot, but just a few. And then, I think one of the more refreshing things were the fact that there were still people who stayed on. And they welcomed me back with like just pure happiness and sincerity. Which to me, I thought was very strange. Because during the one month I did meet some people outside and it was very refreshing because when they met me, they were like… Hi, are you Zhin from TSL? And I’m like, yeah, I am! But they didn’t ask me for a photo. But they asked me, I hope you’re okay. Yeah. And it was then, I was like, wow, maybe whatever that I was thinking in my head is not true. Because not everyone is out there for their own self gain. There are true people out there and it’s just that I didn’t know where to look. What you need to do in the next chapter, is to accumulate these real people who care for you. And essentially, you’re going to build that solid base of followers. And that’s going to make you feel safe. Give second chances to yourself. Give second chances to people as well. For example, maybe there are people who really cared as well. But you didn’t have a chance, you didn’t give them a chance to explain themselves. You didn’t give a chance for your own self to understand what was really going on either. But how do I go about doing that? Well, second chance is to, is to take that risk and give a second chance to do, to be a different personality. And that personality, it’s really you, by the way. Not to act like a different personality because you’re done with the acting. You’re done with the acting. It was so tiring. You will collapse if you got to be that person for the rest of your life. And it’s not going to work. I think, what I worry about is that, will I regret giving these second chances to people? What might make you regret? Um, because like, I think when I was younger. I trusted a lot of people. And then I would give chances here and there. But it was the close people that made me want to die. So, there is a long-term goal for yourself. Which is gonna have to start thinking about how to break out, get out of your comfort zone. To think about that, and not to fear. There’s no need to fear because right now, you’re doing an amazing thing. Of making that one step. Amazing one step. And this is the beginning of it. Really. And I really, honestly, I really want to, I want to see it. I really, truly. Like this is personal comments here, I really want to see, I want to see it. And hopefully, you’ll really be telling me that, ok, there are still a lot of room to grow, but I’ve gone through that bottleneck already. – I passed through it already. It’s so relieving to be able to get out of it.
– Yup. Thank you. – Thank you.
– Thank you for sharing. – Yeah, thanks for listening.
– I really want to, I really want to see that day. Really. – Hello.
– Hi Renae. – Yes, hi. Nice to meet you.
– Hi, I’m Belinda. What kind of issues would you like to bring about today? I think as of the past year, ever since I started working full-time last September, I feel like… I am not that familiar with how to cope with work stress. Now that I’m actually in my dream job and everything that I do at work, I love and I’m very passionate about. I feel like it’s kind of like a curse. That a lot of people say that I’m very much a perfectionist to the point where I really really stress myself out and I take things very personally. And the worst thing is, it doesn’t just end when work ends. I’ll bring it home with me and just keep stressing about it. How long have you been doing this? – I recently passed my one year anniversary actually. So…
– Cool. – Yeah.
– Good job! I mean like, so how would you compare yourself right now? About your quality of your work, compared to let’s say a year ago? The first month that I started working, it was actually crazy. Because every single comment would make me feel like, oh okay, that’s it, I shouldn’t even be doing this job, I suck. Even though, it’s just like a tiny tiny error. It was serious enough to have like my supervisors and higher-ups speak to me about it. – Yeah.
– Because it reached the point where it was severely affecting my emotions at work. Other than that, did your supervisors actually mention anything else? Did your supervisors suggest you to do anything else? Yeah, okay, so basically when I had my one-year talk. – I feel like the bulk of the talk was my supervisor telling me how I should take things easy.
– Ok. And then he says like, there’s really no need for that. Whatever it is, just be a little bit more balanced. And it’s funny that he pointed it out because even before I started working, my dad said the exact same thing about me. What was the trigger? What was the reason? What was at the moment when you felt like oh wow, at this moment, I’m feeling that intense stress again? I think a big trigger for work stress for me, is not knowing what the feedback is about. One night, on a Sunday night, I was about to go to bed. And then I received a notification through my work e-mail. From… Regarding an assignment that I was doing. And in my mind, I was freaking out. I was like, oh my god, they’re going to tell me that they hated it. And that they want it to be completely redone and that I suck. And then I told myself I won’t read it until tomorrow. So, I went to lie down in bed and I was up thinking about it for like 2 hours. And then, in the end, I got so fed up with myself. I was like, you know what? What is the worst the person could say? So I opened it up. And then turns out, the email just said, it’s good to go, you can publish it. For the comments and all that, is there any possible way to actually switch them all off? Oh, I switched it off already because I was so like… – You’re so tired.
– It was so ridiculous how..
– I know! And also, I think the numbers scare me. – But what I learnt is that the numbers don’t correlate to the severity of my…
– Or probably not even relate to you.
– Yeah, mhmm. So like, the result was you traumatised yourself for 12 hours long. Let’s put it in another perspective. Let’s say, if you never prepared yourself. And then you wait until the last minute, and then, let’s say, it really came out badly. It really just came out negatively and then you really had a hard time accepting that I’ve not done well in the end. So, probably from there on, you would get 1 hour of bad feeling versus 12 hours of bad feeling. I don’t know why I’m like this but like, I can see the obvious differences. – Yeah.
– But I feel like I would still go back to like the 12 hour one. Because I’m so used to it. My whole life ever since I was a kid, I feel like I have to worry about things. So, you actually pointed out the very very right words to describe this. It’s you’re so used to it. The first thing, I think you did really well is the fact that you switched off all the e-mail notifications. – Mhmm.
– I think it’s great. How it works, is like, when it comes to a moment when you start thinking, today is going to suck because it happens every morning right. Almost like that. When you start thinking that oh, today it’s going to suck, raise self-awareness. What is raising self awareness? – It’s like be aware that you start telling yourself the same thing again.
– Yup.
– At that very moment, just stop. Just stop yourself. – I know it’s hard, I know it’s hard.
– Yeah. But because you’re so, you were so used to not doing that. And the other thing is, let’s say, put work aside, yeah? – In a magical way, I know we can’t really put work aside. But magically, let’s put work aside.
– Mhmm. What kind of things that you wish you could put more time at? I feel like, the reason why I place so much emphasis on work is because it was like the thing that saved me when I went through my break-up. – Ok.
– Because my first and only serious relationship ended shortly after I started work. And I kept telling myself, this is like the perfect timing because now I can throw myself completely into my work. I’ve moved on from him but I feel like, it’s still a little bit strange because when I was in a relationship, I sort of had more structure in my free time. – Whereby I feel like if I’m ever bored, there’s somebody I can find company with.
– Yeah. I actually like, would request for work shoots that take place over the weekends or on public holidays. Because especially when the break-up was fresh, I felt like it was very painful to know that weekends and public holidays are the times where couples are like, ok great, we get to spend time together. It’s gotten a lot more normal. Like okay, I can like spend time by myself and in fact, I quite enjoy it. What did you enjoy about like starting to enjoy like having me time? I think, like I let go of a lot of the way that I felt like I had to behave when I was still in a relationship. And even like, for work, I feel like, erm, there were a lot of opportunities I would have passed up if I were still with him. But, it’s like, on the grand scheme of things, I know that these opportunities are like, what’s best for me. So… – When I think about it, I feel like I would have turned down those opportunities if I were still with him.
– Mhmm. Just to like, make him happy and because we did love each other. And the reason why I place my career so highly is because, it’s not something that will turn on me one day. And be like, ok, I don’t love you anymore, I don’t want to be with you anymore. it’s like, everything is up to myself. I want to say, you’ve really earned it. These efforts that you paid for, erm, you’ve earned it. – It’s nice to identify what you like to do. And I, and I can’t stress enough the fact that work is not your whole life. It’s not my whole life either.
-Yeah. – It’s part of our very important life. But it’s not all we need to care about. Give yourself room.
– Mhmm. – Some room, some room for possibilities to happen. Same goes for all these minuscule daily tasks everyday.
– Yeah. Let that happen. It’s not going to affect your job. It really isn’t. Because it really hasn’t. And it’s nice to be able to actually resume back your social life. – Yeah.
And hopefully that you’ll be able to, to get back into maybe meeting people, getting back into relationships. I don’t know if you’re dating but putting a little bit more time into the other things. Because that makes a good structure. That makes a good balanced structure to your life. Try and see how it works. – Sounds good?
– Yeah. Ok, thank you so much Renae. I really appreciate this. Really. It met my expectations and more. Because I went into it thinking that I was going to talk about my feelings. And how my one year journey of being like fully employed was like. I feel like I went into details that I wouldn’t necessarily tell like a friend or a family member. Because it was very very deep to the point where if I talked to somebody about it, they would be like oh my god, chill. I felt that she really, like she heard what I was saying and she gave me a very tailored toolkit to sort of manage my own emotions. Without explicitly saying when this happens, then blah blah. I think it was very interesting. Mainly because this was somebody that I have not met before and it is very different from the people that I usually talk to. When it comes to my treatment. I think what she did was more so, allowed me to open up about the things that I was feeling on the inside. The way that she was listening to me, that was something that I really appreciated. And this is honestly one of my most memorable milestones working in TSL. The experience was a bit overwhelming, I would say. You don’t expect to go to a therapy with all the cameras looking at you. So that is a bit daunting for me. It’s… it’s quite scary because I’m telling thousands of viewers my story. But she makes it very comfortable. I don’t know why but I cried so much. I didn’t realize that I needed that much of a release until she came. We’re trying not to advocate that after going for 1 session right, it will make you a better person. We feel that there is some sort of effort that you have to put in. That is the reason why I realised that sure, there are good days and bad days but, on the bad days, I have to put in the effort to kick away the negative thoughts. And be positive. Yes, because like, I think the misconception is the reason why I waited so long to seek help when I was a teenager even though I badly needed it. There’s this, like, association that if you have mental health issues that means you’re like crazy. And even the phrase itself, like mental health. It just makes people go like, oh, ok, what’s wrong with you? And then, I feel like, in this day and age, it’s really impossible for somebody to navigate life without feeling anxious or depressed at least once in their life. So I feel like there’s no need to tiptoe around it and be like, oh ok, I’m super happy with everything in my life. I don’t allow myself to feel negative emotions. I think there is a misconception of people going for therapy. Because when people think of like, when I say to people, oh yeah, I’m going for therapy, it almost identifies as though there is something wrong with me. Or something wrong with a part of me that needs to be fixed. But I think that conception has to go away. Because when people actually want to go for therapy, it means that they want to make themselves better and it means that they want to talk to someone who is qualified to give them the tools that they need to actually improve themselves as a person. And get out of the state that they’re in. And it’s not supposed to be a bad thing at all. It is like going to a doctor when you have a flu. I think it’s very similar to how Pink Dot started like many years back. I think 10 years back? We started out with a very very small community. But then, after 10 years, you could see how accepting the whole community is. I think this misconception of going therapy is exactly the same. Someone has to start it and that’s why we’re doing it. And I foresee this, us breaking down boundaries and getting rid of this kind of… misconceptions. It’s gonna be a very long and tiring journey but it’s worth it la. Thank you for watching this episode of Singaporeans Try. If any of the conversations have resonated with you, I hope it’s managed to make you feel less alone. And if you have considered going for therapy, but you feel some sense of inertia because you feel a little bit shy, you don’t really want to open up to a stranger to start off with. So to find out more, you can just check out the description box down below.

100 thoughts on “Singaporeans Try: Therapy (Mental Health Special)

  1. This episode is different from any other Singaporeans Try video, but it is a topic many of us feel strongly about, and which is sorely underexposed in Singapore compared to in Western cultures.

    At the end of the day, our mental health is important because everything we do flows from it.

  2. Heavy stuff for my tender heart! Loved the therapist such a good listener 🙂 Guys if your reading this please try your best to spread positivism in your life. Sometimes, I mean 95% of our time focus on yourself first you are so important and precious to everyone around yoU!! have a good day cheers :))

  3. Thanks for sharing your vulnerabilities so openly, takes a lot of courage. Therapy is powerful & not as scary as you think

  4. This is amazing! Thank you TSL for this. Going for therapy should never be something embarrassing. It is very normal to seek help and therapy is a place you can do just that. I hope this video breaks down walls and misconceptions of mental health and everyone can be more receptive in dealing with so called awkward conversations about mental health. It is very normal. It is in us and we should all embrace it as a whole community.

  5. Please feel my hug from wherever you are. Thank you for sharing your stories. You are so brave for doing that and may this video opens up more conversations on mental health.

  6. I’m 5 minutes in and my heart is breaking just watching Jes pour her heart out. I wish you all light, healing, and love, and can only hope that the darkness will never find you guys again. ♥️

  7. no doubt best Singaporeans try video certainly cleared and also brought up stigmas regarding therapy and mental health generally. also insightful how viewer can take a back seat and view from a third person pov and see how negative we can be to ourselves. kuddos to the entire team and cast !!

  8. I regret giving a second chance to people. It bit me back real hard. I never look at friendship the same hell even I forget the definition of what a friendship is. Now the relationship I have with people are purely just work. Nothing more.

  9. Thank you TSL, Jes, Zhin, Renae for sharing about mental health. It's topic that resonates within so many, yet it is still a taboo one. Hoping that people will learn to be more understanding towards each other. When you are about to drown, seek help, you are not alone.

  10. Thank you all for the immense courage to share.
    Your current situation is not your final destination. Stay strong 🙂

  11. Beauty?
    They are so brave to say out their personal problems to public
    Respect
    Thank you TSL for spreading this awareness to the public
    And thank you to the members for telling your personal problems to us

  12. Thank you TSL for this video, to be part of breaking the stigma. And kudos to the three of them. Take care everyone ❤️

  13. It's really brave of you guys to step up and share what you guys have been through. It will certainly help a lot of your viewers who watch your video and help to raise more awareness on mental health. Hope that the 3 of you will find a little bit more closure and acceptance in what you guys have been through as well! 😊💕

  14. thank you so much tsl for really making an effort to raise awareness of how therapy is so important to people like me who has really been frustrated for just being myself. Thank you really much♥

  15. Well this videos gives me anxiety. Talking about mental health always gives me anxiety. I had to stop watching just after 2 minutes to prevent myself from getting into a downward spiral.

    Eventhough its not everyday we feel depressed it feels like an eternity when a mental breakdown or anxiety attack happens.

  16. I can relate so much to renae cause I have always been having that I am supposed to worry. I am only 12 but I have been having this kind of pressure for myself from when I was ten cause I had moved to a different country and it was hard for me to adjust. now that everyone says I am a try hard or perfectionist it gives me even more stress. Love you renae! I understand the pain ♥️hope you read this and remember to never give up not only renae but everyone including Zhin, Jess & everyone in TSL

  17. You picked out the three bubbliest people of the newer cast and it really makes me see them in a new light. I wish I could show them in person that I care for them and give them a huge hug 💕

  18. i absolutely loved it so much. thank you so much to jes, zhin and renae for being brave enough to do this and especially in front of the cameras. this is such a much needed video to raise awareness for mental health and i am so grateful you guys did this ❤️❤️

  19. Kudos to everyone who opened up to contribute to opening up on mental health. Takes an intense amount of effort to step out and speak about all the troubles they had hidden in them for years. Xx

  20. OMG I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOO MUCH I CNNT EXPRESS IT
    I LOVE THAT YOU ARE HERE ON THIS EARTH I LOVE THAT YOU ARE ONE ON THIS EARTH TRYING TO MAKE LIFE EASIER AND BETTER FOR BOTH YOU AND ME
    I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
    don’t forget that you are much appreciated by me, us, EVERYONE
    i love you so guys so much❤️

  21. Been contemplating going for therapy for a long while, but didn't know what to expect and how it can actually help. Watching this clarifies many doubts of mine and makes me feel more comfortable going into therapy.
    Thankful to the team for creating this and grateful to Jes, Zhin and Renae for sharing their stories. It must have taken lots of courage and strength on their part.

  22. this must not have been the easiest to do but thank you for sharing your stories and struggles.
    I've only started seeking therapy in June this year, after years of struggling and despite having attempted suicide in 2015, I still told myself to believe that it's a passing phase and was too embarrassed/shy/afraid.
    the stigma behind seeking help for mental health issues is really still strong and I really hope this video can encourage anyone and everyone who is struggling, to reach out.
    thank you TSL for this video, and our three participants, for their strength and resilience in pushing through despite these challenges.

  23. thank u guys for opening up and I know is hard to survive in this world but just keep on fighting for it , u all can do it and thank u for living until right now you’re brave 🙂

  24. This came out at the best time possible. Thank you very much for this. Whoever reads this, whatever you're going through, stay strong.

  25. Thank you Jes,Zhin,Renae for being so open and honest about what y'all been going through.
    I'm reading this book by Ellen Hendriksen "How To Be Yourself" and thought might be useful to share as it opens up my mind to understand myself better.
    I feel that through reading, it gives us the reassurance and the peace that we need.

    Let's continue to be brave, being our authentic self.

  26. Feel like our generation as a whole is starting to take a different and more open approach towards mental health, but it often feels like we're all alone in our own mental health journeys because we simply aren't talking to each other about it. So thank you TSL for opening up the conversation, and I would love love to see you guys continue to make more meaningful content like this (:

  27. It’s so brave, to see them allow themselves to be exposed to the public eye like this with such personal feelings. It’s not easy, they are seriously so brave.

  28. I’m still learning to get over my prev relationship, being hated by ppl and it’s really tough. I tried killing myself, I self harm but I did end up realising, that’s not how I should live. Something that kept me going now, is to be able to help more people… I’m doing pretty fine now I’d say… It’s such a heavy episode but a really meaningful one.

  29. I feel that the one that is difficult to step out of the zone will be Jeslene. Although I think it is possible that at the start, actually both have different views towards bisexuality, or rather not as much as what she seems to have thought of. But this constant factor was being pushed aside, especially when that moment of time where you feel that this person can relate to you and understand you more than any other person you have met. That kind of attraction will be something that almost everyone have difficulty to resist on. So after that you will self-resolute towards having the moment of period where both of you had been together, and wished you had; that you turn into your inner insecurities. That you shelled yourself out from the rest. So for this kind of person is that their first courage to really step out and get hold of yourself and find back your own identity. This process itself is already a hard step for them to move on.

    While Zhin's case was actually easier, as I think it's a common pressing issue in this current generation. That people just want to see the good stuffs, the best side of them to the world. That people starts to live in this kind of facade of themselves, that they have lost their own identity. That they questioned themselves, "Do they really know who I am?", "You won't understand even if I have explained it." kind of situations. You will start to think more than usual, scenarios comes up to you more often. Additional thinking of 'what if', are just toxic to the mental health. It's a vicious cycle, of self doubt and questioning events might not even happen at all. Good that you have taken the attempt of digital detox. This kind of people you have to just talk to them more, and share their same level of understanding, and show them the other side of the scenario of what would have been. They will eventually be enlightened and slowly correct themselves. It's okay to at times get lost, to self-resolute, to be vulnerable of yourself. Being a man doesn't have to put on a strong front, even though of social stigma that men should maintain their masculinity. Being weak is being true to yourself as well.

    Renae's case is also easier, work stress is also another common issue here in Singapore. It has become a pattern here in Singapore, more often than not now you're working on a social media industry. Judgemental comments of various opinions will definitely come out. As much as Millennial tries to open to the kind of freedom of speech. Opening a mail before you're preparing to go for bed is like opening a Pandora Box. The kind of attraction to know what they are going to say, will give you that urge to want and be curious. So down here, is more about discipline and really keep reminding yourself that sometimes things are just voices, but not a reflection of what you should be and must be. However this reminding issue can also sometimes backfire, as you start to blame yourself for being harsh on yourself again. Just have to be more ease, and cool about it will do. You do you.

  30. Thank you TSL for shedding light on a topic like mental health. I hope you continue to do more of these as well as other videos talking about other important but under discussed issues in our society!

  31. I want to see a part 2 for this topic where maybe the therapist can give tips to us that have friends facing the same issues. Most of the time, friends having such mental stresses would be shy or in denial of their mental issues and having us telling them to meet a therapist would just make us look like the "bad guy" or being "ignorant" in their eyes, pushing us further away from them.

  32. Zhin's struggles slapped me, i didn't know anyone else would feel this way. When he told his stories, i felt like i was telling my story. Its a nice episode.

  33. i relate to zhin so much. i trust a lot of people and give them chances over and over again but it was really the closest people that made me almost want to die. it's as if im always trying to be the good person and everyone takes advantage of that. everyone thinks im always happy and never sad and it makes me think " do they really care? " after all that i have done for you do you even care? when im sad instead of asking me am i okay you tell me to stop being sad. ive cut off so many ties and friendships to the point where i feel happy in solitude. but the voices are always there wherever i go " you're not enough" " you're pathetic" "you cant do anything"

  34. I just really wanna hug them all, (I was crying) they had been through soooo much, I'm so thankful that they are still here. I love y'all❤❤❤❤

  35. its so nice to see the three of them coming out to everyone, i wish i could do that too. but i dont know whats the real cause, it started too long ago and problems build up as well as left unsolved. theres just too many things in my head and its still adding on.. sometimes i just want to have a good scream but i cant, i cant. i feel like i just couldnt relief myself because i dont have the power within. its really frustrating how i can be fine on somedays and irritated,sensitive,depressed on other days. it sucks so bad because im dealing with everything all by myself. it would be nice to have friends and family giving me support but i couldnt come out to them, not a single one. they dont and they wont understand and my friends? im scared, im scared that they would judge me even if they dont show it and my friendships would drift like how it happened before. things are so hard

  36. I know how Zhin feels.
    Whenever someone ask how i feel or how am i doing, I just smiled and say yes im fine. But when they truly asked and probe further, that's when i became a human fountain.
    A part of me have hide so much pain that once someone starts to seep in my darkness slowly, i cannot stop crying 😢
    I think a whole lot lot and to avoid those train of thoughts, i kept myself busy day by day, avoiding thinking of the problems.
    I always tell myself that i have to keep on swimming if not i will drown. Drowning in my problems.
    Belinda has such a soothing, unjudemental vibe that i like. Been counselling once and the person i shared to wasn't so 'comforting'. All she does was questioning my doubt and never try to understand what i try to reach out to her.. I guess that's why i stopped seeking help.

  37. Sometimes I wonder if I teared watching this video is because maybe I’m in need of help to improve my mental health too 😔

  38. Thank you for this episode, TSL. It takes so much courage for you to be in front of the camera to go through the therapy sessions and let us, the viewers, know what you guys have been going through. It's education for those of us who are clueless to mental health problems and comfort to those who are suffering. To the three of you who came forward with your issues, you're never alone.

  39. I just want to thank the 3 of them for having the courage to share your story with the rest of the world, those are very personal things. 💖 thank you for stepping up so that others know that they’re not alone in this.

  40. I am a counsellor and mad respect for all 3 for allowing their inner self to be recorded…Thank you for allowing us to experience your vulnerability and openness…..KUDOS to you 3!!!

  41. This made me cry aaaaaaaaaaaaa I knew I had to click it as soon as I saw this video

    Stay strong everyone , I love y’all so much 🙁

  42. Sending all the love❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  43. This video left me in tears. Thank you for being honest and opening up about your individual life. It makes me realize that everyone goes through bad days and it's okay. I am grateful for this episode of Singaporeans Try.

  44. Singapore isn’t a place where people with mental health are welcome. There’re so much stereotype and negativity towards these people. Please, anyone who has met someone who’s dealing with issues, be supportive and understanding. Take their hand and comfort them, bring them happiness, make them feel welcome!

  45. sometimes is not hard to tell others that you are mentally unwell. But it's hard to say it in a way without making the other person feeling alien by you. And walk away and avoid you whenever they see you. Even those working within the mental health and social service is the same when someone close to them tells them that they are mentally unwell.

  46. they are so brave by coming out and talking about their problems i really hope that everything will be better for them stay strong ❤

  47. sending all the love, support and genuine care to you three! thank you for sharing your stories and allowing us to relate, everyone has a deep dark fear and side, and to reveal it to the world is surely not easy. but it has helped so so many people take comfort in knowing there are people who struggle out there, and will definitely inspire more to step out and begin a recovery process. stay strong and be unapologetically you!! humans are not perfect, don’t ever feel the need to subject your entire existence to a single person/minority’s passing comment, and know there’s a whole community willing to support you. and for everyone struggling out there, this is a battle we all face, and will all get through, things may look bleak now, but i hope everyone finds the bravery to make the “first step” mentioned. <3 thanks tsl for covering this topic, in such a sensitive and genuine way 🙂

  48. the professional therapist was so professional and so so sensitive in everything she said so thank u for that :')

  49. Thank you TSL for this video.
    It resonated with me.

    Thank you to the 3 courageous people who were willing to share their stories.

  50. many depress and suicide in Singapore. I just lost a friend. many pose a false front. I also lost one in Hong Kong and Indonesia.

  51. a thank you for having this ep done tsl and also Jes, Zhin and Renae for being so brave to confront your past again 🙂 also, i think Belinda the counselor deserves the credit/appreciation due for being so professional, sensitive towards their emotions as well as approachable for each individual to feel comfortable sharing on their own will!! 🙂 not every counselor is able to do that so good job Belinda!!!!!

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